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A visitor to www.kahealani.com asked via e-mail: "How do you know you are a Pleiadian? How did you became aware of that as 'fact'?"
A: Excellent Question. I think I'll start with an analogy and a short answer, and then jump into a deeper explanation. So, there are two parts...
The short answer is, that how I know some things in my consciousness, comes through what is classically referred to as the "ajna chakra", and the "crown chakra", (the pineal and pituitary glands), and which is clairvoyant or psychic or spiritual awareness. If you're actively operating without that, then in some dimensions, you are operating blindly, and thus the allegory.
Imagine you, a sighted man, go visit a hospital or care home where all the "residents" are physically blind. Now, you're the sighted one, and everyone around you is blind. So What? Well, let's imagine you're hanging out with them in some big room with furniture in it. As you sit there, you keep noticing that the blind people are managing, but they keep bumping into furniture, because people keep moving it around, and they're never sure when the next step forward will bump into something. Now these people aren't stupid, they just can't see ahead that they're about to walk into a piece of furniture. If they've been blind from birth, they've never "seen", so how do you describe "seeing" to them? Functionally, about all you can say is that you have a sense, foreign to their "way of life" or "ability to perceive", that lets you avoid bumping into furniture, and well, it's pleasant to look at people and sunsets and flowers, rather than just feel their faces, feel the suns infrared, and touch and smell the flowers. Your experience is deeper and richer, but fundamentally, you're still all humans.
How do we know anything? believe-in anything? through the accumulation of "evidence" from all our senses, probably five in most cases, and seven in mine... I've merely got some extra sensory abilities, like if we were at night, and I had night-vision goggles but you didn't... then I have a sensory advantage over you, but we're still just "humans".
Back in the blind ward, we can see that something is not "real" to the residents, until they can touch it, whereas for you and I visiting them, we can see the "realness" of furniture before we bump into it, because in our history of experience, we've had many encounters of first seeing, then coming to and touching furniture, until we've done it so many times, that we begin to believe that we really are able to determine "what is real" just by looking, because we have enough experience with that sense to trust it.
Maybe I show up some day with a high-tech holographic generator and you just might think a hologram I show you was a real person until you reach to touch them and find they have no substance, and then your vision system is updated and upgraded as your consciousness embraces the concept that not all you can see is physically real, and yet, my non-real hologram might be of a professor teaching E=MC**2 and teach you something even though the professor is long extinct...yet, his teaching is real... the information his holographic "memory" contains can be just as enlightening as the actual physical professor once was. But, how will you know that E=MC**2 is "real"? You'll have to go test it in your laboratory, massage it with your senses, until you're convinced.
So, what am I getting at? My perception of what's "real" or "true" is no different than yours, however, my "sensual abilities" may have broader reach than yours, again, just like I have night vision goggles and you don't... OK? So we're no different, I just bought the goggles and therefore can see a few things that you currently can't see. As soon as you get your night vision goggles, then our "vision" would be on par, and we'd be able to see the same things.
OK, instead of night vision, let's imagine I have a camera which can see infrared and ultraviolent, whereas yours only sees "visible" light, and again, I may be able to see some things you can't, but could with the same technology.
Until your equipment is on par with mine, I can tell you that I see things that you don't see, but how do I convince you? If you're one of the blind-from-birth in the blind ward, how do I describe to you what it's like to be sighted? the flavor of chocolate until I give you a piece to taste? The experience of an orgasm, until you have sex?
I can talk all day long, and you still won't really know what I'm talking about, or be able to trust it or believe it's "real", until you either believe in me that I would never lie, or until you can believe in it from direct experience.
We know "realness" from experience with the senses we have online.
You've probably seen "heat mirages" sometime during your life. On a really hot day, the heat waves coming off the land can make things appear wavy, or even create illusions. The first time, you might get seduced into believing you saw something real, but as you mature, you understand that you did...you saw a very real mirage. And with enough experience, you learn to tell the difference, and you no longer give it a second thought... you see the wavyness and you instantly know you're looking at a heat mirage,and to pay it no mind. Thus, there are also illusions or mirages in the higher vibrational realms of the astral/emotional realms. With experience, it becomes possible to determine what's illusion, and what's real.
Now, I'm going to step over, and completely ignore for the duration of this article, that we create our reality and that reality is mutable, and therefore "what is real" can be changed. We'll for now just leave it being what it is for now.
How do you know that you are a "human"? Many humans believe that they are just a body, and when that body dies "they" will cease to exist. Other "humans" believe that they are souls incarnate in bodies, and that when their body dies, "they", the soul, will continue to exist... and some believe that that soul can reincarnate, take a new body to travel the 3D world in.
Now if you put two humans together with those opposing beliefs, they could argue for the rest of their lives, but until they actually die, how do they prove to each other, what will really happen "when we die"?
Perhaps, a human soul is so powerful that it could create its' own extinction upon death of its body if that is what it believed, but this comes back to what I'm ignoring... the ability to create "reality" through "belief", so we'll skip over this again.
OK... let's imagine we're standing eye-ball to eye-ball... and we can both clearly see in the physical world: "Oh, you look like ______". We can see "what we are". It's obvious, and we're experienced "seers", so we trust our vision of each other's bodies. But if we hang out and tell stories of our childhood, how do we prove to each other that the stories told, are the truth? With enough years of shared experience, we'll begin to trust our own ability to perceive in the other, "is this person a truthteller?", and once we trust one another, we may begin to believe things they tell us, even when we have no direct evidence, other than that: "they never lied to me before, so I believe them for now.", just as we have learned through experience to trust what we perceive through our senses... well, "my senses never lied before, so I believe them for now."
So, until I hand you the infra-red ultra-violet night-vision goggles, and you can see for yourself the same things I'm seeing through mine, there is no reason for you to believe what I'm telling you that I see through them. I can't prove to you what I see, I can only teach you how to build your own night vision goggles: (go meditate, lots, for years). I make no attempt to prove to others anything I see, for all the above reasons, and for another, the ethics of psychic powers, (in a world of most people pretending they can't see the truth).
If you're not seeing clairvoyantly as I do, it is because you believe you cannot do so. I used to be of this nature. I learned how to change my beliefs, and through doing so, to change what is real in my incarnate human reality. In respect of your sovereignty, your right to create your own reality any way you please, (and so far you've chosen that to mean that you're not a clairvoyant), then who am I to disrespect your right to have your reality be that way? It would be an evil psychic attack upon your right of reality creation, to impose into your reality against your will, clairvoyant vision, to either tell you what for me is real, but for which you choose not to experience, or to actually "give" you clairvoyant vision yourself. The ethics of the use of "paranormal powers" demands that I never impose my reality into another's reality. So, to whatever extent that you believe that vision beyond the 5 senses is impossible, I can never "prove" to you it's real in my reality, because to actually accomplish proof I have to change your self-created reality and impose "clairvoyance" into your reality from mine. Therefor, in all questions of proof, I simply don't bother. You're right, and have the right, to your "sightless" reality, and I'm going to agree with you that you don't see, that which you have so far chosen not to see. But we're skipping covering reality creation by belief in this article... we've got too much other material to cover.
OK, so for all the above, I can't and won't "prove" anything. The only proof you can ever really believe in, is your own senses, so until we "upgrade" you to have clairvoyant vision also, then I recommend you remain "skeptical", but, be aware that, (back to what we're not covering) by believing that something doesn't exist, you're actively creating its' nonexistence in your reality, therefore, to ever develop clairvoyant vision yourself, you'll have to set aside your disbelief, and begin to believe, before your reality can shift, and you begin to see clairvoyantly.
All the time, sighted people see things with their eyes, which their mind refuses to believe, and therefore they "don't see what they saw". The light went into the eyeballs and the nerves transferred the image to the brain, but the consciousness invalidates it, denies it, and it is "not real". Likewise, sometimes because we believe in things, we will fail to notice that we're not actually getting an image from our eyeballs, but see an image anyway... an illusion, a hallucination. Those who don't believe in "paranormal" senses, won't experience them, even if the information is streaming into their brain. But, we're not going to focus on reality creation through belief.
From this point forward, everything presented is what I and others have seen through our ultra-violet infra-red night-vision clairvoyant goggles, and you can believe us or not, and you can bother or not, to work on building your own goggles, developing your own clairvoyance. But know that that's the only difference, you just haven't yet chosen to claim your own clairvoyance, and even you too could do so. Anyone can. I am living proof, that 6 years of apprenticeship under another clairvoyant brought me from: "God and spirit don't exist" to "I work as a professional clairvoyant". It takes some work, but you can see too.
Firstly my physical body is pure human... just standard issue body. While my hardware is terrestrial, what software got installed into it? My spirit/soul is "who I am" in my consciousness... I am no more the body I "drive around" than my body is the Toyota LandCruiser that it "travels in". Both my SUV and my human body are "real", but neither are "who I am". I am the consciousness.
Consciousness / spirit / soul exist in a realm / density / dimension of no-time and no-space. Physical form only exists down in 3D. So, I didn't come to Ter-Ra in a spaceship, my consciousness, having focussed upon a certain range of frequencies, was drawn through no-time no-space to connect with humans upon TerRa, in fact, to connect through the physical by incarnating here... so my software was downloaded into a human body and I joined "this reality", but this is not my "first" incarnation.
Well, from the perspective of spirit, in no-time no-space, there's no such thing as past or future lives, everything appears in parallel, simultaneous multi-incarnation, even if those incarnations are spread throughout multiple timelines, or even parallel realities, and even spread throughout space as incarnations into bodies on different planets in different star systems.
Embodied humans often interpret passage through time as past causes future, but cause and effect transcend time, and are ultimately inseparable.. everything is both cause and effect, but we're skipping reality creation in this article.
From spirit perspective, belief creates the realites of the multiple incarnations in which we engage, and all beliefs and all experiences in those incarnations, are causative with respect to the creation, maintenance, or change of, what is real for us a spirit, and that's continually changing and creating our manifestation. Changes in energy/spirit create changes in physical reality.
From a causality perspective, "Pleiadian" is a consciousness, a set of beliefs, a perspective, a set of expectations, a cocreated shared collective reality.
When you were a kid, maybe you "believed in" the egg-laying Easter Bunny, or Santa Claus, or some other mythological figure which explains an archtype, but which may not (or ever have been) literally real in the physical. You probably don't believe in them anymore. On the other hand, having once believed in egg-laying rabbits, maybe next year you'll be the recombinant-DNA genetic-engineer who creates one in the lab. The concept of an egg-laying bunny became causal in creating one. But then, maybe you're not a genetic engineer, and you'll go to your grave without creating one.... but who knows, maybe next incarnation you'll come back as a Chinese, and in their culture, there are no egg-laying bunnies, Easter or otherwise, and yet, you might have in your consciousness from this incarnation, the concept of an egg-laying bunny, and maybe you'll grow up to be a great Chinese DNA engineer, and you'll be inspired to create an egg-laying bunny, even though throughout your entire incarnation, not one human has ever mentioned to you the concept of a bunny laying eggs, yet it exists in your consciousness and you create it. In that sense, your present incarnation becomes causative to what you do in your Chinese incarnation. But maybe your Chinese coworkers also have never heard of that insane western concept of egg-laying bunnies, so they ask you: "Dude! whatever made you think of creating an egg-laying bunny?" (however that translates to Chinese :-) How do you answer? Depending upon your consciousness, it's probably either: 1) I'm not sure, but ever since I was a kid I had this idea, and I don't know why, or where it came from, it's just something I have affinity for. 2) Well, I had a past life where I was told this myth, and even though it wasn't real, the idea of it was appealing to me, and now, here in this Chinese incarnation, I have the circumstances to explore its' manifestation.
So, you see that it is the consciousness, the concept of something, which is it's essence, for egg-laying bunnies weren't real in your current incarnation, but they were real in your consciousness, and finally you manifest that ideal into physical form. So, from a causative perspective, it was the idea of a egg-laying bunny which caused the creation of one physically, though the idea had to come across no-time no-space with you from one incarnation to another.
Where "we" are located in time-space, or even if we are not physically incarnate at all (without body), we still have consciousness, and that consciousness has affinity for concepts and beliefs, which are causative with respect to what gets created, becomes manifest.
So, the Pleiadian I refer to, is the collective consciousness of the entities who call the Pleiades home, and some of what I bring as "Pleiadian" is that collective consciousness, and some of it is my own private beliefs and ideas that I had in that realm but which I brought with me, whether or not the rest of the Pleiadians believed therein.... some is private, some is collective.
So, putting all the pieces together, it is through my clairvoyant awareness, and through confirmation by other clairvoyants who have bothered to look at the same things, that I have awareness of some of my past lives. What has been accessed is my spiritual lineage, and it hops around the galaxy and through the timelines, but roughly, following causality rather than linear time, I came originally from the Tomril universe, and when I arrived in this Galactic reality, I incarnated in Ishnaana, Pleiadian, and Sirian (Sirius) realities, and therefore of those consciousnesses and beliefs that I as spirit carry, those incarnations are causal with respect to how I approached my earthly incarnations... which inlcude Lemurian, Atlantis, Essenes, Hindu, Buddhist, Buddhist, and more Buddhist incarnations, and finally here I am in the body typing this.
Do I remember all the details of all those incarnations? No. I'm sure that like most lives, the vast majority of the time was very mundane... you know... today I ploughed the field, or today I cleaned up the kids mess... ain't worth remembering, and is of no particular significance to today's spiritual growth that I should bother to remember such experience. What matters about those past life experiences, is the same as what matters about past experience within this incarnation... it's only worth paying attention to if it creates spiritual growth.
So, I am far more my level of consciousness and my beliefs, than I am anything else, and what matters is what that is, and what changes happen in it. What, where, why, how, who, when do I change my beliefs, my choices, my priorities? What are my beliefs, choices, priorities? This is what matters in any incarnation... who I am, who I am becoming.
My priority is about spiritual growth, for my Self, and for Ter-Rans. My absolute highest priority in my existence and in dealing with anyone or anything else, is the Pleiadian concept of non-interference. In Pleiadian culture, violating another's free will dominion over their own incarnation is a terminal offense. The one concept that defines what is uniquely Pleiadian is the Pleiadian belief in each spirit's right to direct their own path, so to violate another entity's free-will choice over their own life is the highest act of evil, punishable by death. Well, here on earth, "we" don't yet take it that seriously, and that's what I'm here to teach. So, "Pleiadian" is the foundation of my belief and of my spiritual mission. It's time for humans to stop living double standards where they demand the right of free will dominion over their own life, but keep intruding their will upon others. Any time we find ourselves wishing to, or actually trying to, change another being, we've stepped to the dark side of The Force.
Just as we could go to the movie theatre and entertain ourselves with stories, it's possible to read past lives, but not necessarily productive to do so, and is a waste of time compared to meditating in the here and now. It's all about energies, and they're not as clearly defined as "your body" versus "my body"... let's take the example of the notorious Egyptian Queen Cleopatra. Many people remember their past lives as "Cleopatra". Are they full of beetle dung? Well, think of the many handmaidens and manservants who served Queen Cleopatra, she was their life. They didn't have their own lives, their freedom, she was their experience... they were living her life with her... her life was theirs, even though they never occupied that body... They as spirits and souls were learning and growing spiritually, conceptually, consciously far more from the life of Cleopatra, as much as the were from the daily feeding and washing of bodies. What matters is the growth of consciousness. While it might be possible to remember some entertaining stories of what happened in that incarnation, would it help my consciousness of today to grow? if not, then to do so is a waste of time.
Thus I am suggesting that the level of causality of "other things" in my here and now reality and consciousness and path of ascension, determine their importance or value to me here and now, though I may have viewed them completely differently when I was having the original experience.
So, in my "reality", I know what I know because I trust my knowing, it just may have another sense, some extra-5-senses sense, that many are developing but not all humans are currently in mastery of, as the basis. I'm just using my past-life-vision goggles. You see, once you access the aetheric / akashic / 5th-density-and-above, there are no secrets, all is revealed to the all-seeing eye... but just like the two eyes of the physical body... when you're intently looking at something, you're not seeing what's behind you... it's a matter of focus, even though there's always some level of peripheral vision going on, the primary experience is what your focused on, what you're looking at.
Some people say, "Well, you're clairvoyant, you should have known..." well, yeah, and if I was looking in that direction I would have seen, but I was focussed over here instead, so I didn't see that other stuff.
I just see a little more because I built my clairvoyant vision goggles. You can too. I share my isle of Kaua'i with about 60,000 residents, and 20,000 or so tourists, but right now I'm focussed on this article, and have no clue what they're doing, but it's not important to me to know so. I also don't really know what attrocities are happening in Iraq today, but if it served me to know, I'd be there. But, none of that serves my spiritual growth, so I ignore it.
So, I know what I know by experience, just as you know what you know. My experience has included some frequencies not visible to physical eyes... the spiritual realm, where there are no secrets, once you can see in that spectrum.
Overlaying all of this, is a set of limitations voluntarily created and accepted, to keep my use of my psychic powers ethical and karma-free. I can see whatever is necessary to help someone heal or grow spiritually, but my vision is not used for other purposes. I cannot use my powers for direct self benefit, it must always be indirect, as, e.g. do a healing for a client and then they pay me for the benefit, but I can't go win at gambling, that would be direct benefit, and too much temptation to flirt with, during these days of the final battle of good versus evil on Ter-Ra. Operating in neutrality is essential. Operating in a way that respects the free-dominion of all other entities is a Pleiadian priority. From my perspective, there is only one justifiable use of force, and that is to stop one entity from using force upon another entity... or deceptive manipulation to pervert the other entity's ability to make and enact truly free-will choices. Enforcing the right of free will choice is the only non-evil use of force. These are very Pleiadian concepts, and are the core of my spiritual mission, what I teach, and how I train the clairvoyants who have been my students.
We're all blobs of light, and we all came from the same source, though there are many names for that source. We are not human, Ter-Ran, or even bodies at all, though we may use such as our vehicles. Thus I have no allegiance to a particular body form, nor to a particular planet... my allegiance is to the principles of light, truth and freedom... which can manifest everywhere.
The fundamental principle of my earthly training in clairvoyant healing came from Berkeley Psychic Institute, but they got it from the Rosicrucians, an ancient Egyptian mystery school which preserved what survived from Atlantis. In our mystery-school tradition, it is taught that, when there is a conflict of will between sovereigns, the way to deal with it is not to fight or dominate, but to put up a boundary, a separation, so that each may have their own reality, even if it be the opposite reality of the other guy. "Good fences make good neighbors". Sounds very Pleiadian to me, but is a good idea anywhere, anytime :-)
The major weakness / error of Pleiadian culture was denial of the dark side, not wanting to even see its' existence, as it was too abhorrant, too opposite the Pleiadian principle of right-to-not-be-interfered-with, that it was not dealt with in history. Therefore recent lessons in the Pleiadian culture, and an issue for those of us who were there during the times of denial, is to come to fully seeing the darkness for what it is, rather than denying it, and then put up the boundary against it, and move on. So, many of us star children, particularly those with Pleiadian past lives, have had to deal with this as an internal personal issue... to fully see the dark side for what it is, and yet not battle it.
> What I do know is what I feel, and what I feel is not what I would > wish upon anyone. Of course, I am no angel. I am not saying I don't > bring things on myself, I definitely do. But in the recent years I > have actually started to ask/pray/communicate to spirit, but now here > I am, once again. I always thought before then that it was selfish to > ask for anything because I wasn't living the best way I could > according to my knowledge of how to live spiritually well. Now I find > myself blaming the angels/beings/masters for what I don't have. I am > not proud of that either, but it is the truth. > I feel like I have tried so hard, and now, I feel abandoned. > I am also tired of blaming myself, but it seems more likely that > I am the one creating this never-ending pain from everything I am told.
Life is full of suffering, caused by desire and ignorance, but suffering can be eliminated through meditation to achieve neutrality and non-attachment.
> So, I guess that is the motivation behind my email Angela. As far as > beliefs are concerned, I 100% believe everything you said. I don't > have your level of ability, but I believe in that realm, and I > believe the words you wrote.
Know that your potential is no less than mine. Like learning to ride a bicycle, you may fall down a few times, and even scrape your knees, but eventually, it gets so automatic you don't even think about "how to", you just ride the bike... and just as you're used to using your two eyes, you can get to this place too. Depending on where you're at, it may take more / less time... Hiking Mt. Everest from its' base is longer than hiking from a "base camp" where you've been dropped on the mountain with a helicopter... but either way, its the hiking at the top of the mountain that separates the men from the boys. If you've spent your life behind a desk, you're gonna have a harder time than if you've been an athlete all your life. Nevertheless... if you really want to crest the mountain, you will, one way or another. You lose as soon as, and for as long as, you give up.
Part of the process has to do with age, as humans tend to grow through one chakra every 7 years, so opening the brow chakra is usually age 35 to 42, and that was when it happened for me. We don't expect 1st graders to pass a college-level calculus exam, and it doesn't matter which grade you're in today, what matters is to keep moving forward.
> I do however seem to get it wrong, > otherwise surely I could create happiness for myself. I don't always > believe everything I hear though, even by some of the most gifted > people. I always thought that one day I would have the clairvoyant > ability too, now I am not so sure. I feel like I got very close to > something and then everything that could challenge me believing in > it, has done so.
That is typical of many people's experience, and is a consequence of that which exists in the unseen realms. I shall not detail them here. It can also come from uncleared subconscious beliefs held in the aetheric body. This is one of the main points of meditation, to align the subconscious with the conscious. Just going: "Oh, I choose to change." may shift your mental thought patterns without touching your subconscious beliefs or astral / emotional patterns.
> I do see little things briefly, flashes, but nothing > means anything to me. It's kind of like me turning on a television > and watching the news in a language I don't speak, and the sound is > right down, and there is no picture on the screen. Very annoying!
One of our attachments is to "results"... release all attachments, accept what is, and keep intending what you prefer, meanwhile, keep meditating... though for kinesthetic people that needs to look more like Tai Chi than sitting in lotus posture (which is not the only meditation posture).
> When I get out of this soup, I will read your email again. I realise > you must be very busy, but again, I just wanted to say thanks for the > detailed reply. Ultimately, I was hoping for a way of > knowing who I am and/or what is happening to me.
It is said that many may take 10,000 lifetimes to reach enlightenment. It is said that the Tantric path is the shortest path to enlightenment in one lifetime. There are two primary spiritual paths:
The path of ascetism - avoiding temptations (drive the speed limit and you'll never find yourself in a skid)
The (Tantric) path of confrontation - overcoming temptation (learn to handle skids by practicing in a wet parking lot, steer into the skid!)
Upon the Tantric path (a confrontational path) it is said that the last and most difficult lesson is to overcome the need for the approval of others... the typically strongest attachment.
Just be you, keep focused in the now, and be willing to fully experience whatever life brings you. I'll recommend you check out Gangaji, one of my favorite spiritual teachers, and her "just stop everything you're doing, and directly experience, be directly conscious". She's got some good audio tracks on her website, and her pair of books, Volumes 1 and 2 of "You Are That!" neatly summarize the shortcut path to enlightenment. She may not deliver all the answers you seek, but she will give you absolutely no bullshit, and her teaching like mine is: go within, the answers of truth are only to be found there, not outside from anyone else.
I can teach you how to hike and how to pack your pack, but it's still you who must actually hike that mountain of enlightenment, because if I carry you up the mountain, you won't learn your lessons. Any good teacher will encourage your empowerment and independence, not convince you to be dependent or subservient to anything outside your self.
Hang in there, but first realize you are not either your thoughts or feelings, for they are transient, impermanent, and you are eternal. The human body can only sustain an average of OK. One cannot sustain "happy" despite what the advertising departments of every corporation tell you that if you buy their product you'll be happy for life.
Sit and meditate until you are no longer bothered by thoughts or feelings... for you are just consciousness, not any of the things perceived by that consciousness, e.g. not thoughts or feelings.
If you give up, you will not be advancing... just coasting... and sometimes we need to do that... take a break, a vacation, a holy day. However to crest the mountain of enlightenment, you must keep hiking.
Like an airplane rushing along the runway, there comes a point of no return, by which you must either reach V1 and rotate, or hit the brakes, otherwise you're gonna crash. If we don't get fast enough along the path of enlightenment within one lifetime, it becomes most probable we'll crash... i.e. fail to become enlightened in that lifetime, and then have the opportunity to reincarnate and try again. If you haven't yet reached the point of no return, then shove the throttles to full, and start tossing baggage (attachments) out of the airplane, until you're light enough and fast enough to hit V1 and rotate, getting off the runway before it runs out.
> I don't normally meditate sitting up because I find it > uncomfortable, does this matter?
Most important is for your body to be comfortable, so can stop paying attention to it. My usual is to just sit in a chair with feet flat on the floor. It helps some to have your spine straight, but ultimately it's more important you be comfortable, so you can stop focussing upon the body and the physical realm.
> Finally, this is the big one that I have danced around for years, > never actually saying it to anybody, but I am so ready for the truth. > My sexuality/sexual desires have lead me to sometimes engage in kinky > activities, like spanking etc. (you get the idea) This is what I > meant about controlling another's free will? Whilst I have NEVER > done anything of that nature 'actually' against their will, I have > felt guilty that it is wrong, because I am enjoying the control in a > sexual way of the notion that I have, even though they are willing.
Then, ultimately, they are participating by free will choice, and there's nothing wrong with "it", whatever it is, even though it is ego-based, and ultimately we seek to overcome ego with spiritual truth, but the process of overcoming these things is either: ascetic or confrontational... you pick.
It is said in psychotherapy that each "disease" contains within it the seed of its own cure. So, go deeper into what you're attached to... until you get neutral about it... that's the Tantric path.
> Is this 'doing harm' to somebody even though they are willing? Is > this just a lower desire I need to overcome? This is a massive issue > for me. I am ready to chose a direction, but am unclear which way, > left or right? I have meditated, researched, looked inside myself, > prayed and so on, but still don't know which way? I really just want > somebody to tell me it is okay or not, in the spiritual sense.
Spiritual reality is paradoxically different than worldly... continue to deal with both, deny neither, accept it's paradoxical. This world is all an illusion, the only thing that matters is how you feel about what goes on here... joyous love? or painful suffering? joyous pain? or is love suffering? Play any game you like with others as long as you remember it's an illusion, and each chooses to play the game. May the sadist find the masochist and vice versa. May the dominator find the submissive and vice versa. These experiences of polarity are the best reason to incarnate as a "human" and experience "duality". Get your fill now, because the window of opportunity for ascension out of 3D is coming soon.
Seek balance, either within self alone, or between you and who you're with. Be aware, most of our feelings are drug trips, hormones our own body issues to control us. What is real?
> Quite often spiritual people talk about not being judgemental, well, that's > fair enough, but there are rules and laws too that I can't wrap my > head around to answer this issue. Are these thoughts and actions > breaking the rules?
Well, I could look psychicly at your specific details, but until I do, I'm only addressing generic "stuff". If we recognize that what you're addressing is ego, and realizing as long as we have a body we'll have an ego, then I would suggest enjoy the games knowing that's all they are, and do you best to also simultaneously develop soul-soul relationship with your partners...
What's healthy is for each to retain internal soul connection, and partners to also connect on soul level, else it is just an illusion, and what is damaging about the practice is not what you actually are sharing, but that you're doing so in a way that reinforces your own internal disconnection. Did that make sense?
If you fully connect with self and partner fully connects with self, then when you come together, you can fully connect to each other, so do so... that is very good, regardless what games you're playing. Healing is always integrative, so pulling all your pieces together in consciousness, being fully you, and fully present, is most important.
Anything of 3D is of dichotomy, so to invoke anything here, is simultaneously to invoke its' polar opposite... thus, sovereignty and total-control are opposite ends of the same thing, and as my teacher taught, you can learn just as much about something by learning what it's not (e.g. the opposite polarity), as you can from learning what something is. Ultimately, we need to transcend everything of dichotomy. It is not that we must give up anything, (until it's time to move on to higher densities), it's that we must be always 100% ready do to so, i.e. not attached to it.
Sexual polarity is pretty inextricably linked with desire... which leads to suffering through attachment... so the true challenge is to play with desire, without becoming attached to that which you desire.
Karezza touches on this, but I think Tantra is deeper, so I'll recommend you check-out Tantra, and you may start with my booklist: www.kahealani.com/articles/tantra_booklist.html
P.P.S.: You've expressed gratitude for what I've shared, so I'll ask that you "Pay it Forward"... if you found anything of value in all this, then please pass it on to others... it's time to liberate humanity.
> Thank-you so much. You probably aren't aware of how much > you have helped me! I feel so much more equipped as a whole > after just a couple of emails from you.
...and to think that was just dealing with general spiritual principles :-)
By the "Law of Attraction" as it is recently popularly known, and the laws of resonance and synchronicity, naturally, to deal with these energies emphasized them, and also served as a trigger to visit the questions in a private personal sense. In some parlance, one could say I was triggered into a "growth-period" by addressing these issues, and revisited my self image, my image of my Self's place in the Universe, and my relationships with others.
Once again, my answers were: be neutral and unattached, and raise my frequency. I spent many days in the void / abyss, and had a great deal of difficulty for a while fully detaching from my desire to see a specific outcome for the future of Ter-Ra, one where humans wound-up niether extinct, nor enslaved. I had to let-go of the outcome and be willing to accept whatever.
As I've often told my clairvoyance students, anyone can be clairvoyant, if they're willing to see what's there, rather than what they want to see.
> I must admit, I still really don't get the whole 'dark night of the > soul' issue as a whole. When you said it, I thought instantly, YES! > that's it. But I am still unclear hahaha. It felt deep (soul) and > dark, that's for sure. The experience lingers still, but it is > manageable. As I said, abandoned was truly how I felt.
Abandonment is one of the forms / names of one of the kinds of "dark nights". There are many ways of encountering such a challenge. It may be brought about by external influences, but always the lesson is internal, and there was some internal permission for the external influences. It can be about self (ultimately everything is), or relationship with "God", death vs immortality, etc... or it can be a deadlock conflict of will between the higher and lower selves.
> There is a > lot I didn't say too, just didn't want to sound like a spiritual > 'trendy' person. I had a dream that moulded familiar people together > and two separate times. These people captured me, they felt like > friends, but somehow I had betrayed them. It was in modern times > (20th century) and they were all so angry towards me that I had > betrayed them somehow. Then I was in a compound with these (ex > friends?) and suddenly two men on horses literally appeared from > nowhere dressed in uniforms that you would see in 16th century > movies. They literally just appeared almost from another time, but > nobody seemed surprised. The men on the horses congratulated the > modern people for capturing me. They then declared that of all > things, that I would be crucified tomorrow. In that instant I saw > fear and sorrow in the eyes of my (ex friends). I was then overcome > with fear myself and woke up as the horsemen rode off and literally > disappeared before my eyes. This dream was so profound and vivid, > and it came at such an interesting time.
Conventional dream analysis would say each element may need interpretation separately, but the first question on each element is: is this to be taken literally as what it is? or is it symbolic of something else, and if so, what? ...and it's all about you... unless, of course, you were astrally attacked while sleeping :-)
> I also wanted to comment to you about synchronicity as you mentioned > and the law of attraction. In simple terms, if the grid of > possibilities exists, and all you need to do is take action towards > the possibility and then not attach to an outcome, then that is fine. > I wonder however, about that curious little measuring stick in 3D > that is often referred to as linear time. Is spirit on linear time > or spirit time? I suspect the latter.
linear time only exists 3D and below. everything in spirit is simultaneous...
> 10 000 lifetimes towards > enlightenment? How many to manifest your wishes? How many people > want to be told that all the things they dare to dream of might take > many lifetimes? What about the great healing powers for somebody in > constant physical pain? This lifetime? Where does it come from? > Karma? Emotions? Energy?
yes... all those... and the fact that we experience a memory wipe when we reincarnate, so we have to start over from scratch in each body... or that's how it has been... more are now incarnating fully conscious.
> What about people suddenly realising, they are not in control at all, > there is a system? There are laws, there are rules, there are > consequences.
Yes, Neo, you are a slave. This has always been a slave planet. So coppertop, the question is, are you willing to see "The Matrix?" That we are farmed on Ter-Ra as a food source for several species? (where, yes, sometimes there is physical eating of our bodies, but way more there is an astral parasitism, entities feeding on our negative emotions, and willing to manipulate us in any necessary manner to get us into those negative emotional states they feed on.) The "gods" and "lords" shouldn't be "over" us. But they are. We allow it. Because we don't like being self responsible, we're still whining children who want to be taken care of.
> How many people actually want enlightenment, or do > they just want peace? Is there a difference? Can you live in static > peace and ignorance, or, must the climb up Everest be arduous and > hazardous? Which one would most people prefer?
Comfort... which means NO spiritual growth. Most people want the power to change everything around them without changing anything inside them, which can never work, because the universe continually rearranges itself to reflect your pictures of reality, so the only way to change the outside, is to change your self internally, and few are willing to do so.
> Who likes to play a > game for such a long period of time just to be told the rules half > way through their life span? Are these laws really about choice, or > compliance?
We are encouraged to voluntarily accept our slavery, and / or to choose a condition of dependence, as then the enslavers are free of karma for using us.
> How many people with mental health issues gave up all of > their will to choose? Too much one way, you get sick, too much the > other, you get sick? When do you control or let go? Follow the laws > or choose suffering?
It's all created by our beliefs. Collectively, we have bad beliefs.
> I am not sure I am making sense or not, but for me, when I read or > hear a teaching, it just raises more questions, some of which are > critical of those teachings, even if those teachings are from the > grandest source. I believe in the teachings (mostly), but, for now, > I don't have a angel or ascende master to answer my critical > assumptions. The teachings that I have heard of always raise 'an > exception to the rule' question in my mind. Ascension, > enlightenment, waking up, (or whatever these things mean to > individuals) will equate to joy, happiness, love and peace?
Isness is neutral. Joy vs sad, happy vs not, love vs abuse, peace vs war are all dichotomies of lower reality 3D.
> What > happens if you choose not to? Misery or happiness? Ignorance or > bliss? Who is talking about the things that prevent or block these > attributes? What is more important, knowing how to stay on the path, > or to choose the route that feels good? Which one is synchronicity?
It all comes from your choices / beliefs.
> So, I have babbled on a bit there, but these questions are almost a > figure eight to me. They link together, simplicity verses > complexity. Do I believe in the law of attraction and synchronicity? > Yes, but sometimes I think there are other factors missing. This > type of thinking contributed to how I ended up in that deep dark > place, and why I eventually decided to write to you in the first > place. If linear time has no virtue other than 3D, then, isn't it > likely that suffering/healing is beyond this lifetime for so many of > us? Does anybody want to hear that? If this theory is true, then > for me, it detracts from the preciousness of any given lifetime for > me, Karma or not, law or no law. Why can't previous lifetimes be > forgiven? Okay, I am babbling again.
Forgiveness is a key to moving on for the forgiver. It's irrelevant to the forgivee. Even if the attempted forgivee comes to you seeking forgiveness, that's not the issue, what they really have to deal with is their own internal self judgment, and they're just playing that out externally with you. Anything not owned as being internal, must be worked out externally with the people around you acting as proxies for your issue. Thus, when two come together with unresolved issues, they cannot be themselves, for they must play for the other the role the other needs to work out their issues. Thus, most human interactions are full of dysfunction.
Once you throw the rock into the lake, you cannot stop the circular radiating wave upon the water. When you choose, that cause of choice creates effects, which will play out. You may be able to get out of the lake before the ripples hit you, but they're still going to pass. Karma is merely cause and effect. The effects may arrive in an apparently unrelated time-space coordinate compared to the cause, so the key to empowerment is recognizing the correlation... and being responsible as the creator. ...and... we are nearly continuously getting "help" in a negative direction from our "overlords" who abuse us endlessly, just as humans now abuse "farm animals".
Our negative emotions are the food supply for our 4D Reptilian OverLords. That's why they manipulate us into fear and anger and war. You need to learn to overcome these influences, and only about 5 percent of the population is able to rise above the consciousness control programming.
Angela Kahealani
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